Thursday, March 28, 2013

How happy a human can be?

It's hard to define happiness. And I am sure no one can do such thing, since it depends on who sees and feels it.
I am now happy, but the question of how happy I am now is irrelevant. I happen to not be able to answer it, because as much as I love words, I am fully aware that sometimes the capacity that a word offers to explain things is limited.
I'm feeling the happiness which I wish everybody can feel. The happiness that can cheer you up every second of your day, just because you realize that everything is just a phase that you have to go through. The happiness that makes everything feel so easy, no matter hard work you need to put into it. The happiness that makes you want to see the sky and smile. The happiness that makes you feel like you're indeed a very lucky person, and you're grateful for it. The happiness which makes you think that nothing would be harmful enough to knock you down. The happiness which makes you feel relieved because you know you have nothing else to ask for, or because you feel settled and completed. The happiness that makes it much easier to smile and laugh. The happiness which makes you feel that everything that you've done persistently is worth it. The happiness which makes you feel that you are blessed and loved by someone that you dearly love.
So does that description answer the question of how happy I am? It doesn't. It's everything beyond what I wrote above. I am that happy.
Is this normal? Seriously, how happy a human can be?

Cheers!
-bss-

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

I made friends with a b*tch

Timing is a bitch, but I tried to make friends with that bitch.

I had no idea what had gotten into me and told me to do something I'd never had the courage to do. I did what my instinct said. I did what my soul wanted me to do. I did what I'd been trying to avoid for years.
I did it.

And somehow, that bitch cooperated well. I feel relieved and thankful for doing it. 
As selfish as it may sound, I finally gave myself a chance to breath easy and to feel whole again.
And, I also thank you. Yes, you.