Finally! I have nothing to do today.. No OSN, and my teacher told me (and the other OSN students) that we didn't have to go to school to do Sumatif test today. They'll arrange a special schedule when the OSN students and I can do our Sumatif. Well, it's good! considering that I haven't studied anything besides Economy and Accountancy, hehehe ;D
I'll be having three days off anything; Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Today I'm having nothing to do, but maybe I'm going to school at 3pm to meet my PO and Avian. Tomorrow and Wednesday I'm going to study Economy&Accountancy for OSN again with my friends. It can be at school, or at my teacher's house in Pasar Minggu. And if it is in Pasar Minggu, I may meet my Junior high friend; Kevin. Hahaha but I think it's better to study for OSN than to do my Sumatif when I'm not ready at all! Yea, wish me luck in anything folks!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friendship
I deserve my enemies with no doubt, but I don't believe I deserve my best friends..
If someone asks me whether I have best friends or not, I will answer 'Yes, of course I do!'
But this is what I want you to know.......
Maybe I'm not the type of person who likes to have intense relationship between best friends like phoning you everyday, chatting with you everytime, or calling you straightly when I want to cry.
But, you know, I still think you're my best friends.. Maybe I don't tell you my story regularly, but I left a piece of my heart in you. Sometimes I feel like a stranger when we talk to each other, knowing how little I know about you guys, but then I realised that it's the consequence of being my type of person. Love you and miss you so much peopleee!
to: Nessa Dami Utha Distie Dhini Ava Anti Tika Dinda Olvy
If someone asks me whether I have best friends or not, I will answer 'Yes, of course I do!'
But this is what I want you to know.......
Maybe I'm not the type of person who likes to have intense relationship between best friends like phoning you everyday, chatting with you everytime, or calling you straightly when I want to cry.
But, you know, I still think you're my best friends.. Maybe I don't tell you my story regularly, but I left a piece of my heart in you. Sometimes I feel like a stranger when we talk to each other, knowing how little I know about you guys, but then I realised that it's the consequence of being my type of person. Love you and miss you so much peopleee!
to: Nessa Dami Utha Distie Dhini Ava Anti Tika Dinda Olvy
I wish I hadn't needed to live this day
Today has been awful! I hate today and I think maybe it would have been better if i hadn't woken up at all this morning. Everything just went totally wrong! But again I succeeded managing myself from crying. Well, I'm not sad, I'm just mad at anything!
Please someone, cheer me up..... But don't ask me why I'm mad, because I won't tell you why..
Please someone, cheer me up..... But don't ask me why I'm mad, because I won't tell you why..
Thursday, May 28, 2009
May 28th 2009
Happy 17th Birthday Aviaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!
Well, no more to write, because I've already written it on those papers I gave you personally.
I love you :)
Well, no more to write, because I've already written it on those papers I gave you personally.
I love you :)
Overwhelmed
Yea that's what I'm feeling, overwhelmed.... My head has been full of unimportant things, which actually don't need to think about, but yes those things really disturb me.
Lately I just discovered how fake this world is. Not everything in this world are real and even I just found out that I am surrounded by lies and fakes. After being awfully sick for a week, I learnt a lot about life. It's not about my illness, but it's about the hurting realities which occured after my being sick. And yes, everything's just overwhelming..
I didn't cry, but my heart was always beating fast when I knew that I was facing that hurting realities. It happened not just once. Well, as time goes by, I'm getting stronger.
I figured out many lessons of life in my highschool moments and then I realised, "Yea, highschool life is just fake." You can't know which people are kind to you and which are not, because you don't know what they are talking behind your back. Even sometimes maybe you just don't realise (because there are people who are good at being fake) when something hurting occurs right under your nose.
Overwhelmed is just the perfect word to describe how I'm feeling. My head and my heart is just full and tired of working too hard. My head has been used to think and digest all words that I've heard. My heart has been used to feel how hurt and manage myself from streaming my tears..
Don't be fake, people. Don't smile if you don't want to. Don't pretend to be the kindest person on earth if you still do backstabbing. Don't pretend to be something that you are not. Because being fake is totally unacceptable...
Lately I just discovered how fake this world is. Not everything in this world are real and even I just found out that I am surrounded by lies and fakes. After being awfully sick for a week, I learnt a lot about life. It's not about my illness, but it's about the hurting realities which occured after my being sick. And yes, everything's just overwhelming..
I didn't cry, but my heart was always beating fast when I knew that I was facing that hurting realities. It happened not just once. Well, as time goes by, I'm getting stronger.
I figured out many lessons of life in my highschool moments and then I realised, "Yea, highschool life is just fake." You can't know which people are kind to you and which are not, because you don't know what they are talking behind your back. Even sometimes maybe you just don't realise (because there are people who are good at being fake) when something hurting occurs right under your nose.
Overwhelmed is just the perfect word to describe how I'm feeling. My head and my heart is just full and tired of working too hard. My head has been used to think and digest all words that I've heard. My heart has been used to feel how hurt and manage myself from streaming my tears..
Don't be fake, people. Don't smile if you don't want to. Don't pretend to be the kindest person on earth if you still do backstabbing. Don't pretend to be something that you are not. Because being fake is totally unacceptable...
Lucky? Not really this time
I am a very lucky person or maybe the luckiest! I passed my Economy Olympiad again. Double U-O-Double U : WOW! Thank goodness for this luck but this time I can't really focus on this thing and it's because of the Sumatif I-should-be-having thing. I worry about my scores, I worry about the Sumatif I'll-be-having-alone.
Mom said to me that I should have focused on this Olympiad, because I had already missed the class many times! And how awful it is if I can't keep up my work in this Economy things when I can't follow the lessons in school either. I will mess both of them up. And actually I don't feel like I'm gonna pass the Olympiade again because I know that the others are much better than I am. That's why I worry about all these things..........
Mom said to me that I should have focused on this Olympiad, because I had already missed the class many times! And how awful it is if I can't keep up my work in this Economy things when I can't follow the lessons in school either. I will mess both of them up. And actually I don't feel like I'm gonna pass the Olympiade again because I know that the others are much better than I am. That's why I worry about all these things..........
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Too tiring week?
Yeah maybe.. This week has been crazily tiring! Yeah, I got 3 days off from school because of the Final School Examination for the 12-graders. Well, I kinda forget how i spent those 3 days, but all I know is I had no time staying at home. I spent it easily by going anywhere (Well I just totally forget where I went, because you know, my memory is a short-term-memory).
But, I remember something............. Tuesday night, I was told that someone from school called my house, and said that I had to join OSN Study Club in SMA 48. Well that meant I didn't have to study at school on Thursday and Friday! Yeah, you would think it was fun, but not for me. Because I already knew that studying Economy all day is much more tiring that studying at school with many friends you already knew.
It's not that I am not proud of my achievement being in the fourth rank in South Jakarta for Economy OSN, but I have to admit that I don't like Economy that much. But I am very grateful of this achievement. Soooo day 1 and day 2 of that Study Club went tiring enough, and still I had to prepare for the 'Drama Musikal' XI IPS 2010.
Saturday, it was D-Day when I had to take the selection test. Well, there were 125 pupils from all around DKI Jakarta, and 25 of those 125 were about to be eliminated. The test was awfully difficult. So I don't hope much, I don't wish for the highest rank, I just wish there are 25 people who are dumber than me hehehehe :D After the test, my friends and I went straightly to school to do the Dramus which went spectacularly cool!
Sunday and today? I'm sick. My parents told me it's because I am hardly home, I went anywhere anytime. Yeah, maybe I'm just too tired. I'm not going school today, I've got terrible fever and cough since yesterday :( hhhhhhhhhhhh I hope I can get well soon!
But, I remember something............. Tuesday night, I was told that someone from school called my house, and said that I had to join OSN Study Club in SMA 48. Well that meant I didn't have to study at school on Thursday and Friday! Yeah, you would think it was fun, but not for me. Because I already knew that studying Economy all day is much more tiring that studying at school with many friends you already knew.
It's not that I am not proud of my achievement being in the fourth rank in South Jakarta for Economy OSN, but I have to admit that I don't like Economy that much. But I am very grateful of this achievement. Soooo day 1 and day 2 of that Study Club went tiring enough, and still I had to prepare for the 'Drama Musikal' XI IPS 2010.
Saturday, it was D-Day when I had to take the selection test. Well, there were 125 pupils from all around DKI Jakarta, and 25 of those 125 were about to be eliminated. The test was awfully difficult. So I don't hope much, I don't wish for the highest rank, I just wish there are 25 people who are dumber than me hehehehe :D After the test, my friends and I went straightly to school to do the Dramus which went spectacularly cool!
Sunday and today? I'm sick. My parents told me it's because I am hardly home, I went anywhere anytime. Yeah, maybe I'm just too tired. I'm not going school today, I've got terrible fever and cough since yesterday :( hhhhhhhhhhhh I hope I can get well soon!
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