Hello again!

I've learnt a lot since my last post on this blog :



1. Differences are common and naturally pretty.

2. Destiny is not a reason of not doing stuff.

3. Find your priority, in this case I would say that mine is my family.

4. Sometimes looking back is necessarily needed, just to simply remind you things you should and should not do in the present.

5. Memory always draws a smile on your face. Either a happy smile, or a sad one. It depends, yet it's still a smile.

6. Be who you are, and think twice about how you wanna be recognized and labeled.

7. Don't refuse what time brings you, because it might be the answer of what you asked in the past.





Enjoy and live high ;)



-Binar S. Suryandari-









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First Impression

Weird.
Serious, or maybe too serious.
Competitive.
Depressing.
Hectic.
Cool.


Let's see, shall we? I hope this will be great. I'm so easily get panicked. So please just wish me luck ;)

HighSchool and PromNight

Last night was awesome, it was my high school's prom night. The high school I had been avoiding to get into. But now, it's the high school where all my biggest steps in life were made. It's the high school that changed me as a person, that told me to take life seriously and enjoy it at the same time, that taught me to see things wider. It's the high school where I first knew how my decision can have a big impact, not only to me, but also to the others as well. It's the high school where I found great friends and mates, uncool backstabber, reliable partners and unbelievable phase of life. It's the place where I found myself, it's the place where I found happiness.

I may not be one of the most popular girls, but I'm proud to be one tiny little part of my high school. I don't care of what I wore last night, I don't care how my too-long dress failed me to walk and move properly. Last night was just incredibly spectacular. Last night was awesome.

Thanks to SMA Negeri 8 Jakarta and its people, for giving me such a great memorable phase of my life. I'm proud, I'm proud to "Delapan 2010"........!

-Binar S. Suryandari-

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For you, the sincere guy

It's the 23rd of the month, and it means we've been together for 5 months dear. Thanks a lot.. You're the most sincere person I've ever met :) and despite all the differences we have, we both are still willing to learn about each other. That's what is superb. Love you, Pi!

May 23rd, 2010
-Binar Sari Suryandari-

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You've weighed things, haven't you?

I've been learning a lot for the past 12 months. There are so many kinds of people. People are different. There's no chance you'll meet the very same characteristics in one person in another. They live their life with their own way. They embrace it with their own way.

I'm surrounded in socialite consists of so different kinds of people. Since I realized how lucky I was to be circled by them, I observed, I learnt, I smiled in gratitude. They have dreams, for sure. They have their way to pursue them. I love having a chitchat with them and see their point of view. And you can't blame someone from their point of view. Their thoughts have both positive and negative sides. After all, we're still human; we're imperfect.

Success and failure are just a little instance of trial. And life is full of options and choices. You've got to choose, to decide, to move forward to another level. In choosing, you weigh things; the good and the bad effects. This is the time when the difference of the characteristics of people is about to be revealed, about to be known and understood. They choose to be what they want to be, they choose to be what they want to be known and judged. Nothing is wrong about that. Remember, they've weighed things already and they have their chance to choose. When success comes, they, unconsciously, are in trial. See how people deal with success. It varies in many ways, doesn't it? So is failure. It's just another form of trial.

You choose how you want to live your life yourself. And whatever you choose, it means you're ready to be known by what you've chosen. Don't be mad. Of course, you've weighed things before you choose, haven't you?

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Their results and a message for you

Congratulations to all my friends who passed UI's admission test!!! SIMAK UI udah selese, dan hasilnya pun udah keluar. Luar biasa banget karena teman2 sekolah gue yg keterima sampe saat ini ada 202 orang! Whew. Ciut ngga lo dengernya? 8 2010 rocks! I'm so proud of you guys, and proud to be part of 8 2010 ;)
202 orang itu emang angka kasar yg keterima, ada yg bakal ngambil, ada yg engga, ada yg udah keterima tp belom sesuai pilihan yg diinginkan pula. Yg belum tembus sama sekali juga ada. Jangan berkecil hati yaaa. Keep your flames on and work harder! Jgn pernah pertanyain takdir Allah deh ya pokoknya, semua ada jalannya. Usaha+doa berperang sm takdir di suatu tempat sana. Jadi siapa yg kuat, dia yg menang. Makanya di pol in aja deh usaha sama doanya, dan kalo emg udah mentok ya tunggu aja "tangan2" Allah akan bergerak kemana. Go, Fight, Win deh ya teman-teman!!!!

And dear you, don't worry, everything's gonna be alright. You've been so incredible, your effort has been unbelievably great. Despite your failures till now, I'm so proud of you. I'm proud being the person who has the chance to be this close to you. You're great. Keep on smiling, trying, and praying dear.. Remember, Allah sees, listens, hears, gives, and grants. All you need is your patience and effort. You're such a big-hearted man. I love you....... :)

Sincerely yours,
Binar Sari Suryandari

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You may say.........

You may say I'm selfish, unstable, immature, weak, over-acting, greedy, or whatsoever. Hm, well it's okay, because now maybe I am.

May 5th, 2010 14:41
-Binar Sari Suryandari-

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You want a revenge, you'll get it soon, won't you?
I'd been telling everyone to give you a hand, because I knew, I wouldn't be able to. Now, you've got all the help you need. You seem to have fun. I always want you to get your own happiness, because your happiness means a lot to me, still. But in fact when I found out, I wept. Ups, no, I didn't weep. I cried like a newborn baby. What I didn't know was how I would feel. I am sick because of my own will. I am sick for giving you what you need and want.
Now I want to give you an early congratulation. And I just ask you for one more thing : please give me your smile, because maybe it's the only cure.

Let me draw a conclusion :
The 'someday' is definitely not now.....

-Binar Sari Suryandari-

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2009

It was superb. I had a great time.
I learnt. I failed. I succeded. I was happy. I was sad. I laughed a lot. I cried a lot as well. I counted the days. I hurt people. I was hurt. I understood things. I gave up. I tried again. I gave up again. I made changes. I loved. I was loved. I got great friends. I made decision. I let go. I was suffering. I found a bright light. 2009 was awesome..

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The end and the very beginning

Okay, now everything's over. By everything, I mean all the pressure and, of course, school. I got my national exam's score which is not very satisfying. But it's enough as long as I passed it.

The end of it means the beginning of other things. I'm no longer a high school student, I'm about to go to university. Yea since I already got accepted in University of Indonesia, I'm now feeling sooo relieved that all I gotta do is waiting for my friends' admission tests result and preparing myself. Yea, I really wanna have so many familiar friends in the place I'm studying next. So I'm really excited to wait for their result and see who'll go to the same university as me.

That's it. Thanks a lot for those whose support were just incredibly sincere and great. I've passed 12 years of school; wearing school uniform with red, blue and grey skirts. I'll surely miss it, but alhamdulillah, it's over ;)

-Binar S. Suryandari-
SDS Putra 1, SMP N 115 Jakarta, SMA N 8 Jakarta
*Hubungan Internasional, Fakultas Ilmu Sosial dan Ilmu Politik, Universitas Indonesia*

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Whoa. I'm old.

Hm yea I'm 17 and this year, on September 19th, I'll be turning 18. And whoa, that's a big number. Do you believe that we've been living this world for 17 years? Well, I'm having hard times believing it.

What have I done for life, others and even myself? I have finished elementary school, junior high, and am gonna be graduated from high school this year (amin). Whoa. Whoa. What will I tell my children years later? Where has my childhood times gone? Have I reached the point of maturity rate which suits my age?

Getting into university must be very exciting, hmm yet also scaring. I'm gonna be a college girl soon and............ it's a wow. Who stole my happy childhood moment? Why times passes so damn fast? I'm old. Haven't done anything in life, and will be turning 18 this year. Crazy.

Damn, I'm old.

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Quick Update

Whoaa, long time no write on this blog. Well, quick report for you guys :
1. Yuhuuu I got accepted in University of Indonesia, Faculty of Social and Political Science; International Relation Department ! Whoaaa alhamdulillah......
2. School has been sooo hectic lately. Exams and TryOuts seem to have no end.
3. I'm enjoying my last weeks in high school. Cool. I really can feel how fast time passes by. It's like, whoa, in months I'm gonna be graduated from school. Amin.
4. National examination, grrrr can we skip it, huh?
5. Have just hit Solo, and maybe Bali would be great hm hmm my parents are just cool!
6. He's the best spontaneous boy on earth. And I'm happy to have him :) <3
Well, I think that's all. I'll write on this blog soon. I promise!
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:) :))

It feels great. It is overwhelmedly great. It's crazy. It's relieving. It makes me speechless. It draws a very wide smile on my face. It increases my confidence. It is unbelievable.

Adjectives can't even describe it. Words are no longer able to express my feeling. What else could I ask for? Their smiles are just more than enough. It was a dream, a dream I'd been trying hard to reach. Allah never leaves me. Allah hears, Allah listens, Allah sees, Allah knows. Allah trusts me with this great chance.

It's their smiles, hugs, and kisses that I've been seeking. When the smiles appear, when the hugs and kisses are given to me, the feeling of being me is just overwhelming. They're incredible.

Thanks to Allah, for the best parents, sister, brother, best friends, and best boyfriend <3 Thanks for those who support. They're incredibly great. Alhamdulillah.

-Binar Sari Suryandari-
Hubungan Internasional, Universitas Indonesia 2010

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Time and Changes

The ticking of a clock enlightens my mind. It makes me realize that time passes by no matter how we spend it. It will never go back as we always hope when we regret. Time gives no special treatment to anyone, it treats all of us the same.

Time will never understand, it will only answer.

2009 has ended. Ah what a memory. I remember being a very bad person, and then tried to turn to be a better person months after. I can recall not only seeing a very stressed girl on the mirror, but also seeing a girl with the widest smile ever.

Changes were made, and yes, changes have never been easy to get through. The response of people to the changes varies in many ways. And again, I learnt. There are people whose responses were just relieving and unbelievably great. But there are also people whose responses were their laugh which caused a heartache in me. Well it's okay anyway. I now understand.

2010 has begun. What a year it must be. A year in when my future plan is about to be architectured. Not just about the future plan, it's also about improvement I'll be making about myself.

The clock is ticking, not fast but also not slowly. It's ticking in a perfect frequent rhymes. Changes have never been easy, but sometimes they are needed. What changes will you make in this year? Well let's just see.

Learn a lot, let life be full of surprises, live high.
Time will never understand, it will only answer..

-Binar S. Suryandari-

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