Pangrango

Lukisan-Mu rumit, melelahkan, menyegarkan, dan sejuk. Lukisan-Mu.......................luar biasa.. Dan waktuku takkan pernah cukup untuk dapat menelusuri habis setiap lukisan indah-Mu.

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Terima Kasih

Ya Allah..
Terima kasih atas segala karunia-Mu, atas segala nikmat yg Kau berikan,
Terima kasih atas tiap udara yg kunafaskan, ruh yg Kau tiupkan, dan jasad yg Kau bentuk sedemikian rupa,
Terima kasih atas segala karakter, dan ilmu pengetahuan yg dapat kuserap,

Ya Allah..
Terima kasih atas Bapak terbaik di dunia yg luar biasa sabar, yg berbeda, yg percaya, yg supportive, yg menjadi penghangat, pemecah suasana dan mengenalku dengan baik
Terima kasih atas Mama terindah yg pernah aku kenal, yg sensitif, yg penuh perhatian, yg selalu bersedia menemaniku, yg selalu bersedia berbagi cerita denganku
Terima kasih karena telah memberikan aku orangtua yg tak pernah kenal lelah membanting tulang, yg bekerja dari 0, hanya untuk melihat senyum terbaik dari anak2 nya

Terima kasih atas kakak yg hebat, yg menjadi teladan bagi adik2nya, yg menginspirasi, yg luar biasa berbeda
Terima kasih atas adik yg kuat, yg dewasa, yg pengertian, yg persistent, yg mengajariku banyak hal
Terima kasih atas saudara2 hebat, yg spontan, yg menjadi sumber pembelajaran terdekatku hanya dengan mengobrol di kamar sempit atau bahkan melalui lubang ac di dinding pemisah antar kamar

Ya Allah..
Terima kasih atas teman-teman yg memiliki senyuman paling menawan, yg suaranya menenangkan, yg menerimaku apa adanya, yg pelukannya menghangatkan, dan yg selalu mengingatkan ku bahwa aku tak pernah sendirian
Terima kasih atas orang-orang itu, yg membuat aku semangat ke sekolah, yg membuat dunia terasa indah, yg selalu dapat membuatku tersenyum malu di balik telefon genggam
Terima kasih atas guru-guru, yg membuat ku pandai, yg tak pernah malas membagiku secuil pengetahuannya

Ya Allah..
Terima kasih atas lukisan-Mu yg indah, yg menyejukkan, yg membuatku semakin merasa kecil dihadapan-Mu
Terima kasih atas segala pengalaman hidup yg luar biasa bermakna, yg telah menjadi goresan-goresan tinta yg pekat, yg dapat dibaca dan juga dipelajari
Terima kasih atas segala kegagalan yg menyakitkan, yg membuatku tersadar, yg membuatku belajar, yg menjadi guru terbaik dalam hidupku

Ya Allah..
Terima kasih atas rumah kecil yg indah, yg nyaman, yg tak pernah lari kemanapun saat aku butuhkan
Terima kasih atas kamar sempit yg terasa luas, yg menenangkan, yg sudah memahami segala aktivitas, sifat, serta keburukanku tanpa pernah menolak untuk aku masuki
Terima kasih atas kain-kain itu, yg indah, yg terasa cantik saat dipakai. Jadikanlah kain-kain itu lebih dari sekedar kain, jadikanlah itu semua menjadi kain pelindungku dari api neraka yg panas, yg membawaku semakin ke jalan-Mu

Alhamdulillah.. Tak pernah cukup bibirku mengucap syukur atas segala nikmat dan rahmat yg Kau berikan..
Life is great and wonderful if you know how to enjoy it

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Poci-poci

Halo halo, terimakasih banyak untuk orang2 yg sudah memberikan komentar ttg blog gue ini. Ada yg bilang post nya pd gloomy banget lah, ada yg bilang isinya knp in english semua lah, dll.

Maafin deh ya, kalo there are sooo many grammatical errors di post2 sebelumnya, I am not an expert in english soalnya, but I wanna be one hehe, makanya berusaha improve dgn membiasakan hehe. Trs knapa gloomy? Ini tanpa sengaja loh, ini kan Unspoken Words kan ya. Dan biasanya words which are left unspoken usually are gloomy things to be told. Krn kan kalo seneng2, kadang org ngga bakal nulis, tapi bakalan senyum2, ketawa2 atau bahkan joget2 hihihihi.

Oke oke, skrg ttg hari2 gue belakangan ini. Sabtu besok ambil rapot loh, dan gue agak ga peduli krn gue tau itu ga bakal ngaruh ke apa2. Dan syukur alhamdulillah, sumatif gue dimudahkan dan akhirnya gue terbebas dr segala remed yg biasanya gue dapet. Banyak bgt deh pelajaran yg gue dapet kaya sebulan belakangan ini. Dan gue sangat senang dan bersyukur, dan terima kasih buat orang2 yg mendukung gue untuk jd Binar yg lebih baik sampe akhirnya gue sadar utk memberanikan diri membuat suatu keputusan yg menurut gue cukup besar. Dan sejauh ini keputusan gue itu membawa hasil yg memuaskan krn pd akhirnya gue semakin berusaha buat jd manusia yg lebih baik dan percaya bahwa there's something bigger than this universe..

Makasih bgt ya semuanya, seneng bgt deh, dan gue ngerasa semuanya dimudahkan, alhamdulillah. Mata yg besar dan bisa ngeliat dunia dgn luas tuh bener2 diperluin bgt ternyata, dan dgn mata hebat itu gue yakin kita semua bisa mengambil keputusan dengan sebijak2nya. Dan itulah kedewasaan. Gue salah kalo gue nganggep gue udah dewasa sejak masuk SMA. Salah juga kalo nganggep 17tahun itu dewasa. Dewasa itu bukan sesimpel itu ternyata dan bahkan sekarang gue ngerasa belom dewasa sampe saat ini tapi gue tau gue udah 1 langkah ke depan menuju kedewasaan. Aduh maaf bgt ya kalo gue sotoy atau sok bijak gitu, tapi beneran deh gue ngerasa belajar banyak bgt akhir2 ini dan menemukan beberapa kesalahan gue dalam memaknai kehidupan selama ini.

Hmm sudah deh itu saja, makasih sekali lagi buat orang2 yg mendukung dan sudah menjadi objek pembelajaran kehidupan buat gue hanya dengan menemani ngobrol, dan melihat cara pandang kalian semua. Oiya special thanks buat Kak Titis yg mention nama gue di skripsi nya yg membuat gue merasa keberadaan gue dgn segala ketidakdewasaannya lebih dihargai :) Selamat juga buat kak Titis yg sekarang udah bisa menyelipkan gelar Sarjana Hukum di namanya, dan buat Rakha yg udah menang lagi baru2 ini, dan selamat buat semuanya yg ngerasa udah mencapai sebuah achievement dalam segala aspek kehidupan.

Hihihihi post gue kaya poci-poci yaa, tapi gapapa deh, gue menulisnya dengan penuh kesadaran kok hehehe ;p

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Not at all

You don't bother me, not at all
I don't mind doing those things, not at all

In fact, I enjoy it, really. Thanks for being very supportive and making me feel like a better person who does better things :-)

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Enjoyable <3

1. Well, I think I've got my distraction, and kinda love this kind of distraction <3 hope this will go and flow very well
2. Having the most successful final-exam in school since I first stepped my foot on this highschool is just cool. Yea, it's worth it
3. Life is full of choices. And I guess now I'm mature enough to be presented with choices.
4. I'm gonna wander in beautiful landscapes with my Puapala friends soon! Gonna see some coolness out there :-)
5. Just got a very terrible accident which made me have the biggest guilt in my life so far. But again, experience is the best teacher

Ah, I love my life. Never dare to imagine and dream. You can have imagination as wild as you want it to be, and no one deserves the right to bother it. And embrace life, remember, we only live once. Lalalalala life is wonderful <3

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And it means.......now

When distraction is needed..
When fake smiles appear..
When sensitivity is just too much..
When curiosity increases..
When things are overwhelming..
When warmth becomes the scarcest thing in your surroundings..
When words are not enough to express things..
When all you can swallow is disappointment..
When the ticking of a clock becomes the only sound you can hear..
When your large swollen eyes are unable to see things clearly..
When madness fulfills your mind..
When rejection wants to be your bestfriend..
When your heart feels nothing..

When sleeping is a must..

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"You are such a genious artist to have painted an unbelievably wonderful phase in the picture of my life.."

-Binar S. Suryandari-
(December 6th 2009 23:28)

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What a mirror reflects

What is that?
...........
What is that? Which seems so empty and hopeless?
What is that? Which feels so unreal yet flawless?
What is that? Which looks as miserable as I have never seen?
What is that? Which goes with no direction?
What is that? Which walks with confusion?
What is that? Which sees nothing?
What is that? Which sells no excitement?
What is that? Which offers emptiness in heart?
What is that? Which makes so incredibly heart-breaking noise?
.........
........
.........
What is that? Which leads me to wonder?
.....
....

Ah, it's just a mirror. Mirror and the reflection of someone who's in front of it. Ah, that couldn't be mine. Oh no, I hope it's not my reflection.

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Chaos in my mind

1. Having end-of-semester exams is just torturing
2. I love being busy, it makes me feel alive, but I hate having a busy mind
3. I'm hopeless. I'm not confident at all. And thank you for those who still support
4. The path is just getting shorter as time goes by, and I don't even know if this path leads me to my dream. But yes, I hope so.
5. I will finish my high-school in less than a year. Look how fast time passes by
6. Troublesleeping at night isn't good for those who are going to have exam in the morning after
7. I love helping people, at least I have something to do, and as I already said, it makes me feel alive
8. I may not be the brightest child on earth, but I'm trying to make them as proud as they can be of me with my own way
9. Home is always the best place you can run to. The silence in my bedroom always helps me relax
10. I am afraid of falling down too high, but no, I'm not afraid of hanging my dreams highly. Risk taking is needed to live an extraordinary life.
11. My friends are cool. They unconsciously make me feel that I'm needed.
12. So are my family, they help me soooo much in understanding myself. I love the way they built my character
13. Whatever people say, I still stick to my diet rules. At least I'm satisfied of my struggle to be able to hold myself from eating. It's nice to know that I can control myself :).
14. Failure is a common thing. It sucks but then it is what I learn from.
15. Hectic, yes it is. But then again, this is life. And I embrace it because I only have the opportunity to live once.

Take care people :--)
-Binar S. Suryandari-

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Hmm

It hurts, but thanks.. I'm glad for you and I wish you so much luck. Maybe I'll just wait without any expectation..
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Please don't....

Don't try to avoid me
Don't pretend to be someone else
Don't hide
Don't say that you don't know how I feel, cause I know that you know
Don't judge
Don't think bad at me
Don't hesitate to talk to me
Don't let anyone else know but us
Don't stay far away from me
Don't treat me as if you're a jerk, cause in my deepest heart, I still have faith that you're not
Don't hurt anyone, hurt me first if you have to hurt someone
Don't blame anyone, just blame ourselves
Don't regret, cause it'll just change nothing, I already happened
Don't stop laughing and smiling, cause I like the way you laugh and smile
Don't let anyone judge, they don't know what really happened
Don't make decision carelessly

Please.... Don't change. Don't go.....
Please stay the same................

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I am pathetic

It's not easy to find you between those hundreds of people. But I know, you're there, somewhere. Whatever people might say, I don't care. I can't deny that this thing feels great yet it confuses me. I don't know either what you meant or what you want. I really want you to know what in my mind is. But you know, it takes courage. And I still don't have it yet. Also, if I tell you these, I'm afraid that you would change. And I don't want you to change.

Do you know something? I bravely say that what I feel is different from any other feeling I had already had before. Why? Because I've never been this freak. It's a feeling I've already had since years ago, but I didn't know that it could be this powerful. I thought I could bury you in my deepest heart. But I was wrong. At that moment, it wakes up and appear strongly out of nowhere but my heart. It's been there for years. But it wasn't as powerful as now that you had woken it up.

I know it's wrong, but don't judge please. It comes out of nowhere, and it's uncontrollable. It already hurts with no one knows. I don't know what will happen if someone finds out. Yea it will hurt even more.

It's strong, trust me. But I'll just keep it. Please talk to me, and tell me everything I need to know, plus answer all the questions I have in mind. I'll support every step you take, whatever decision you make. I promise you, I will.

Oh, dear God, look.. Look how pathetic I am.......................

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18 questions I've got in mind

Are you there? Do you constantly have a look at my blog? Do you know what I'm feeling now? Do you know how it hurts to be unable to tell it to anyone? Do you know what I mean in this post? Are we cool? Are we gonna talk about it or just let it flow like nothing happened? Do you feel the same as what I feel now? Am I stupid? Or am I an evil? Can you feel how complicated it is? Are you happy? Do you know what this is? Is it a game? Is it an occasionally game? Are you trying to hurt me? Do I hurt someone? Will you let it be a secret to everybody else but us?

If you read these questions, please answer straightly to me in a way nobody can hear and understand. You know who you are. Please, I'm begging you to answer. But please don't change after you answer, please stay the way you are.

-Binar S. Suryandari-

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What's this?

It's a fantasy. Oh, no it's not. It's real. It's calming. It's gentle. It's relaxing. But no it's not relieving. It's a problem yet it makes me glad. It feels great but it's not okay. It drives me crazy yet happy at the same time. No, it's not a good thing. It's something I am not supposed to have or feel. But, oh dear God, it's something I can't refuse, I can't deny, and I can't control. What's this? Oh yea, it's something I can't tell anyone but my reflection on the mirror.

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It's a sorry

I'm sorry, really sorry.. I refused not because I didn't want to. I cancelled because it was not the right time. I couldn't go because I did have things to do, that's why I refused and cancelled it. I am sorry, very sorry if you get it wrong. I hope we're cool. Seriously, I didn't mean to. I know you're mad at me, but please forgive.. I am really, really sorry...........................

To : A friend of mine
From : Binar S. Suryandari

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Write 15 things that you want to say to 15 different people, one for each. It could be a confession, an opinion, a thought, anything. However, you can't write something you already confessed or something you already said, it has to be something new. Tell them which is whom if you want to, but you don't have to.

In this post (in random order) : Titis Lintang Andari, Rakha Agung Suryandaru, Anisa Agtriani, Nisrina Damiyati, Utari Nur Kharunissa, Distie Saraswati, Andhini Nafisah Febrina, Alfi Rosyidi, Avian Andika, Kevin Pardede, Mulia Destini, Laksmana Gusti Handoko, Luna Puspita, Andika Chaktiaji Zulfiqar, Pramudita Hanum Andaristi

1. "Heyho minnesota girl! I miss having an one-minded classmate like you.."
2. "Cieeeee tertarik sama 'Asta'?."
3. "It's always nice to have you in my room and tell you my things. You've really grown up fast, brother! Can't believe how mature you are now!"
4. "Be patient, friend. She's uncool to do that to you and go having fun with her new boyfriend."
5. "Hello there! Wow, always feel great to have a chat with you. I'm always glad to help.."
6. "How's life? And how's your Schoolympic curly boy, huh? Send my regard to Bunda :)"
7. "I don't get it when you say that you owed me many things. I don't think you owe me something.. What does it mean?"
8. "This is honest, I admire you. Anyway I hardly understand words you're using in your blog, too complicated for me -_- And yes, you're definitely a psikopat!!!"
9. "Thank you very much.. And yes, I wish you so much luck in the future. I always have faith that you'll be one of those successful people in this country :-)"
10. "We're friends since elementary school, and now I know your biggest secret! But trust me, I won't tell anyone"
11. "Hello sexy, I miss you. And I know you miss me too hehe. Anyway thanks for calling on my birthday. It did mean a lot :-) looking forward to hearing from you via mails as always!"
12. "Sorry for cancelling your treats. Besides my inability to do it, I also don't want to go with just the two of us. It's kinda stressing for me -.-"
13. "Hey, I hope he's not only your first boyfriend, but also your last boyfriend till you get married, have kids, and face the end of the life :-) "
14. "Weey, I miss you! How's the ipod Nessa and I made for you? Isn't it cool, huh? Enjoy your Utah, girl!"
15. "Hmm still remember 'KitaBerlima'? Hahaha from that 5friends, look who are still best friends. Us, isn't it? You're really a mom-person. You do what elder people do, and it's great, really!"

So, can you guess which one is for you?

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Bonus

I want to get it, really. This is a dream I've been dreaming since I was in elementary school. I'll do anything to get it. Well, how if I am asked to be able to get it in a much easier way? Wow, of course, normal people will say yes, including me. I want to get it through this easier way, yes I really want. But how if after I apply, their answer is a no? Hmm a month ago, I remember myself telling "I don't know how to be able to take another way". No, now I've changed my way of thinking -> "It's a bonus if you can get it through the easy way"

Yes it is a bonus. No matter what, it's not an absolute thing. I cannot depend on that bonus thing only. I realised I have to get a grip too in another way. If I can get it, I'll be very happy, happy as I never be. I'll hug my parents, streaming down the happy tears. And I promise, I'll help my friends to get what they want too. But, if I can't get it, surely, I'll cry. I'll regret things but I won't make it long. I have to get up and realise there are still ways waiting for me. And yes, improve myself and try my best.

It's a dream. It still is. But to get it through the easier way is a bonus. I want the easier way, but if I can't get it........ Well, nothing to lose then, right?

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Secrets

Life itself is a secret. Yes, you don't know when the time will come for you to leave the world, to live the life. We know life is not always great. Life is a circle. There are times when you feel like everything's great for you and also the times when you feel like you are the one who has the worst life.

Allah has called one of my friends, Uta. He was a very lovable person. He was the clown of the class and yes, everybody loves him. It was all of a sudden. Whatever caused his death, I believe that it's the best way Allah wanted to call him. Allah has plans. Plans for every one of us. The duration of our life is there.

I learned. And I just knew that this is Allah wanted me to do, yes, to learn from that. To find the silver lining from this big dark cloud.

Embrace life, people.

Life, at which we've been cursing everyday, can find the end of itself at any time we don't know. Life is a gift. Be grateful of it. Try and do your best every time, because you don't know when you can't do it anymore. Yes, as I always say, live life to the fullest. And be lovable to people, because when someday your time comes, they will be the ones who say their prayers to you, to wish you the best in another world, and to wish you to get a very beautiful 'seat' beside The Almighty.

And yes, Uta, I wish you all those things in my prayers. We love you, as always. We won't ever forget you :--)

Again, people; Let life be full of secrets. It's a pandora's box. Just live it to the fullest, cause you don't know when the pandora's box will be closed for ever..

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A lesson

For me, life is not a stage. And please, don't think that it is. What's the point of acting and pretending to be something that you're not just to make people love you?? --> Pointless.

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Why?

Perfect people don't exist. Everybody is simply imperfect. So why do people talk rubbish about other's imperfectness? I mean, do you ever think how you feel if other people talk craps about your imperfectness behind your back in the exact same way? Will you feel hurt?

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Gunung Gede, 28-29 September 2009

Puapala (Putri-Putra Pecinta Alam Delapan)

Gue adalah salah satu anggota Puapala XXXV. And I've been telling to everyone that the best decision I've ever made is this, joining Puapala. Now, I can see the world more clearly, discover and try new things. And thanks to Puapala, for being another family of mine and for opening my eyes wider to see the world. I haven't done many things, but I'm proud of what I've done..

Dan foto2 ini adalah foto2 ttg Puapala, Puapala XXXV lebih khususnya, dan yg kebanyakan diambil di Gunung Gede, saat kita melantik Puapala XXXVI.
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Best Friends

We're best friends.. Maybe we don't have many things in common. Each of us has different characteristics and likeness. Some of us like doing sport, some of us love being active in organizations, some of us love hanging out, some are into fashion, some speak a lot and some cry a lot.

We're different human beings to each other. We have different activites, and different world. But when we gather around, we are mixed. We leave our own world as we build our new world together. We laugh together and share our story. We listen to the other's story, even if the story is about their world, which we don't actually understand. We care about each other. And yes, we are best friends..

So, I'm introducing you : My greatest lovely girls, who have always been keeping me sane..
--> Dami Nessa Utha Distie Dhini Dinda Tika Ava Anti Olvy

?you guys :--)
-Binar Sari Suryandari-

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Random thoughts

Right at the moment, I'm at 'Perkampungan Betawi', running away from the Try Out I should be having. Seriously, I'm just not ready for anything yet, including all those exams.

We're now in early October. September has passed. And yes, I'm now 17.. We are special at every age, for me. 17 is just another special age for me. And I have to be a mature-17-year-old person, yea I really hope so..
September 19th is my birthday. My latest birthday, which is my 17th, was okay. I had great family and friends who came to my room and woke me up at 00.00.. They were all great. But when they went home, my day turned to be 'different'. Now I can say that my latest birthday was unforgettable, unforgettably pathetic and heart-breaking.

There was something I couldn't find. I hate it. It made me forget about the great surprise I'd already had. It was pathetic, and I was terribly sad and I just can't forget it. I still don't understand why it could happen.

I don't know why I'm writing this on my blog, this thoughts just randomly passed on my mind...

Goodluck for your mid test, people! Wish me luck too :--)
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Two things men should know about women

Women might be fragile, but we're not weak
Women might be childish, but we're not immature

Thanks and goodnight,
*Binar Sari Suryandari*
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Well I've never tried to answer a quiz before, let me try this one ..

1. what are three ways to win your heart?
Being honest, humorous, and loyal

2. do you like lightning?
Sometimes..

3. have you ever cut someone else's hair?
Yes

4. last person you said 'i hate you' to?
My reflection on the mirror, yeah now you know how freak I am..

5. rain or sunshine?
Rain, but not a very heavy one

6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
"Can I sing in your band?" Hahaha

7. biggest turn off?
Hurting talks

8. fave movie?
Too many, I can't pick one of them

9. would you date someone who smokes?
Yes, why not?

10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
No

11. what's your biggest turn on, physically?
Beautiful eyes

12. would you have sex w. someone you weren't dating?
Hell-no

13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
Missed, yes. Regretted, no.

14. have you ever dated someone more than once?
NO

15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
To be honest? David Beckham

16. what's your relationship status?
Emm single?

17. do you like cuddling?
Yes

18. do you hold grudges?
No, I guess

19. do you regret dating anyone?
No, never

20. hugger or kisser?
Both

21. missing someone?
Yessssss!

22. most important lesson you've learned from your exes?
Understanding is the key to a happy healthy relationship

23. are you happier single or in a relationship?
I think my happiness doesn't depend on what my status is

24. how important are looks?
As long as his looks don't make me feel bored and uncomfortable, cause I'll look at him very often, even in my dreams hehe

25. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
Nice!

26. do you stay friends w/ the people you've dated?
I guess so

27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
No

28. do you kiss on the 1st date?
Nope

29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
Emm maybe.. If he really can assure me that it won't happen again

30. some random girl comes up to you and says "who the hell are you"? What do you say back?
"And who the hell are you?"

31. are you spoiled?
A bit

32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
Lying, cheating and..... having difference in basic principal of life, emm like religion maybe

33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
What?

34. did you miss anyone today?
Yes Yes Yesssss

35. last person to see you cry?
My brother

36. Who/what made you cry?
My feelings, and yea heart-touching things, and movies

37. are you a forgiving person?
Yes I guess

38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
What? Definitely no

39. i've come to realize the last person who gave me a hug.
I can't remember

40. are most of your friends guys or girls?
Both

41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
I don't know, maybe 15minutes or faster

42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?
4-5

43. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
Yes

44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
A firework-stick

45. what is your full name?
Binar Sari Suryandari

46 what color is the bra you have on now ?
Do you really want to know? Hahaha

47. do you straighten your hair every day?
Nope

48. do you worry about the size of your boobs?
No

49. are you the typical girl who's addicted to gossip?
Sometimes, but not hurting gossip

50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
Hmm cosmogirl maybe

51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
No

52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Always hehehe

53. would you leave the house without makeup on?
I often leave without make up, very often

54. what's the biggest turn on about guys?
Visionary thoughts and maybe humorous talk

55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
In the middle

56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
NO, green is

57. what's the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
Hmm can't remember

58. what color do you absolutely despise?
I'm sorry but maybe pink

59. have you ever stole?
Hmm, yes

60. have you set your hair on fire?
No, but other girl's hair, yes

61. do you wear sweat pants?
Rarely

62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
Yea the grown-ups

63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn't see it?
Yes and that hurt

64. doesn't 50 Cent suck?
No

65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?
Yes

66. do you act gangster?
No

67. ever made a prank phone call?
Yes. I said "Can I speak to Mr. Lion King?"

68. last kiss?
Never

69. what bill do you hate paying most?
Thank God, I bought things which are useful and never regret to pay them

70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
I've never had that one, I guess

71. what did you want to be when you were growing up?
I always want to be a diplomat, emm but I did want to be a teacher once

72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
Having an all-night-long talk and yea laughing and maybe watching DVDs

73. when did you first start feeling older?
When I was 15 years old

74. favorite guilty pleasure?
Cheating on an exam, especially on Religion exams

75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
Oprah Winfrey

76. what famous person would you like to date?
Again, David Beckham in the first place

78. what do you hate about your school?
The always-having-exams thing

79. last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
Kak titis's

80. have you lost a friend recently?
No

81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
No

82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Not a lot

83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
Forget

84. do you give out second chances too easily?
I guess so

85. is your best friend pretty?
Yes of course!

86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?
Hmm yes sometimes

87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes

88. can you make yourself cry?
Yes

89. is your life simple or complicated?
Complicated

90. are you easily confused?
Yes

92. are you taller than 5'4??
I don't know how tall it is in cm, but I can assure you that I'm not taller than that

93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Yes

94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
Yes

95. does everything really happen for a reason?
That's something I always believe

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Buka?? Sahur kali!

Ih sumpah deh gue ga tau gue kenapa, aneh banget gue kemaren ckckck...... Hmm jadi kemaren gue adalah bener2 bego dan kaya linglung abis gitu. Gue pulang sekolah dan ngga inget apa-apa sama sekali. Yang gue inget adalah gue langsung tidur, dan yaudah itu aja realita yang gue inget dengan jelas.

Kayanya sih gue tidur lama banget gitu, sampe gue denger suara kakak gue dan akhirnya percakapan antara gue yang agak linglung dengan kakak gue itu terjadi :

Titis (T) : "Bin, maghrib tuh, buka loh"
Binar (B) : dgn entengnya menjawab "Hm." (tidak menggerakkan tubuh sama sekali)
T : (bingung) "Woy bin, buka itu buka"
B : (langsung bangun) "Hah??! Maghrib?! Saur kali! (dengan sangat begonya)
T : "Hah? Maghrib woy maghrib, aneh banget sih kamu"
B : "Haaaaaaahhhh? masa maghrib? Terus kenapa aku bisa pake piyama?" (melihat ke badan sendiri dan bingung, kenapa gue pake piyama)
T : "Lah, tau... Aku juga tadi bingung ngapain juga kamu jam segini pake piyama"
B : .............

Freak abis? Emang, banget! Gue langsung lari turun, membatalkan puasa dan mengecek keadaan sekitar untuk meyakinkan dri gue bahwa itu benar2 maghrib, bukan dini hari. Kenapa gue pake piyama siang2? Jawabannya adalah : "Ngga tau". Mungkin waktu itu gue mikir biar adem kali ya, haha lupa juga gue............

........

Last night i was having a very long chat with my sister. Well, actually I'm not that close to her. I mean, we're close, but not as close as I am with my brother. That long talk led me to imagine many things. I'm grateful of who I am and what I've got, I really am. But last night was a great night. I didn't regret that I barely had enough time to study History for today's exam, I enjoyed it and it was worth it.

We talked about 'those' happy and lucky people. I'm sure they're the best. All the story kak Titis told me dazzled me. The touching one and even the annoying one. The touching one made me cry, yes i'm easy to cry. (Everytime I hear, watch, see or feel a very sensitive; sad, touching, overwhelming condition, my tears just easily stream down my face and I just can't handle).

There's this lucky girl, very lucky and I believe strongly that she's potential. But kak Titis told me that she refused her luck. She cancelled every plan she had made and every effort she had been through. It's insane! Yea, considering there are many many pupils out there craving to have the luck to get that rare chance, maybe including me.

And I understand perfectly the disappointment kak Titis felt. I'm sure there's no error in judgement, and I'm sure that they are worth it but it might be just because the timing was not right. Maybe that's why they were unable to show their real potential.

It's the best they can get, and I'm sure they're the best ones to be given that opportunity. When I knew I failed, I was sad, but I do believe that's the best Allah wants me to get. And I believe also that I'll have my own way. And I'm proud of myself for being much more mature that I was before. I'm grateful of the life I've got. And I just can't tell you how balance my life is in these last 3months..........

Life is great when you see it from the right point of view :)

Thanks, you really made my day! :)

Yesterday : I went to airport, saying goodbye to Dita, Luna and Zarvan. And then I went to Senayan City to watch 'The Proposal' with him. The movie was crazy and okay. I enjoyed it, I really did. Thanks! I perfectly understand that it was just not right, but honestly you really made my day. Yesterday was so much fun! I'm waiting, you know........ waiting everything to change, I love you and if only it were just enough. We are working on getting this fixed, aren't we?

Beberapa hal yg bisa gue kasih tau

Hello! Thanks for your comment on my latest post. Thanks also for congratulating me. I really appreciate it! :)

Oke, selama beberapa hari ini gue merasa terjadi perubahan besar dari diri gue. Salah satunya mungkin status. Gue ga akan jelasin secara detil gimana proses ataupun alesannya, karena gue ga yakin semua pd ngerti gmn posisi gue..

Gue cuma mau bilang bahwa it's never been easy for me. Kita sama2 tau apa kesalahan kita, tapi apa kita mampu ngerubahnya atau....... memperbaikinya? Kita berusaha bertanya pada diri sendiri, dan berusaha nyari jalan yg terbaik. Tapi gue tau dan sadar, yg terbaik yg Allah kasih belum tentu jadi hal yg menyenangkan buat kita..

Suer, ini ga gampang, gue jg ga bilang that the fault was entirely his own. Gue ga menutup diri buat balik, tapi kalo emang itu terjadi gue pribadi berharap kita bisa mulai dari nol. Kita harus sama2 dewasa, mesti ngerti satu sama lain, toleransi, atur emosi dan sama2 berusaha peka sama kondisi satu sama lain.
1tahun itu lama loh, dan jangka waktu itu udah bikin hidup gue berubah. Gue ga mau munafik, gue emang masih sayang sayang sama dia. Masalahnya, bukan cuma sayang yg dibutuhin dalam suatu hubungan.
Mungkin beberapa orang bisa bertahan hanya dengan rasa sayang, tapi gue ngga. Butuh banyak faktor pendukung lain selain perasaan.

Selama 1tahun tentu aja udah banyak bgt kesempatan2 buat lbh memperbaiki diri masing2. Tapi ternyata sama2 dari kita ga bisa manfaatin kesempatan itu. Kesempatan udah dateng lebih dari 2kali, tapi ga bisa dong kita terus2an berharap sama kesempatan2 yg sebenernya belum tentu selalu ada lagi.

Hm, mungkin cukup itu aja yg perlu gue tulis di sini. Semoga ga ada pandangan2 negatif lagi, dan semoga juga ini bisa membuat semuanya jadi lebih clear. Thanks :)

-Binar S. Suryandari-

BRONZE, it's way beyond my expectation

I got bronze medal in my Economy Olympiad, and for me it's way too cool because it's beyond my expectation! Alhamdulillah......................................... Thanks for your support, friends!

August 8th

Hello, happy 1st anniversary for me and Avian! :)

My OSN week

Hellooooooooo! Right now, I'm at the hotel where I have to stay during my OSN test. Thanks to Allah, it's almost done! The test was horribly difficult, especially the essay part. And the most nervous part is when I had to do my makalah presentation in front of the juries.

But I'm really happy to know that in 3 days I will start my 'normal' routine again. Maybe not so normal, knowing that I haven't studied anything in my class, and it means I have to study harder than my other friends to get all the knowledge and lesson they've learnt.

Tomorrow is the announcement day. I'm not nervous at all. Because at least I can have this great experience, meeting many pupils from all around Indonesia, seeing how money is printed, having the simulation games of stocks in Indonesia Stock Exchange, going to Bank of Indonesia and many more. It's been crazily great..

I'm going home on Sunday, and I'm very excited about it. Can't wait to have my normal routine again! See you in school folks!

-Binar S. Suryandari, SMA Negeri 8, D.K.I. Jakarta-

Can't feel anything?

Mau tau? I just got home on July 29th, after having such crazily tiring days in a hotel where I (and other friends) had to study Economy non-stop for 7days! Everyday we had to study from 8am till 10pm. Isn't that crazy?

I cried, not only because I missed my home, but also because I'm stressed, too much pressure, and I'm seriously scared. Right at the moment, I think I can't feel anything. I don't know what to do, what to feel, and I'm just surrounded by emptiness. This is definitely the toughest phase in my life. I don't really like Economy. But I believe, Allah has brought me this far for a reason. I'm lucky, being selected to go this far when there are hundreds of pupils want to have it too.

I'm not medal-oriented. I know I won't take the free-pass to FEUI if I can get gold medal. FEUI is not my purpose. All I want is proof. I hope by doing this I can prove myself, make the smiles appear on my parents' faces with their thumbs up. Ahhhh I wanna cry!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow is the beginning of my scaring days. I'll be staying in a hotel for a week and during my staying I'll also have my olympiad. The olympiad test consists of 4 kinds of test. Multiple choice, Essay, The making of makalah & Presentation, Stock and Invention Games. Isn't that scary or what?

Hmm I don't know, I cannot study and I haven't packed my stuff. I always hate packing. Can someone do it for me? Hehehe please pray for me and wish me luck. I'm very scared and afraid (especially of the makalah & presentation, considering my lackness of knowledge in Economy). Good byeeeee :)

What I should have written days ago

Holiday?
It had been great! I always had something to do everyday. My mom turned to be very kind, she granted almost all my wishes. And Kak Titis and her team are the runner up in that International Law Competition in Brisbane I had told you before.

# Diklat Puapala? Don't ask, it's just for Puapala Family. Besides all the problems we had, I am glad that it went great.
# Bandung! : Well I know how silly I am, for having been in Bandung only 3times, but yes it's true.. But this time, I went there with my greatest friends. Nessa, Dhini, Tika, Dami, Anti, Ava, Dinda, Olvy (Well actually I hoped Uthe and Distie could join us, but they couldn't because of yea reasonable reason). Everything was great, except the tears and a kind of allergy I was having. Miss you already guys hehehe

Hmm when I was still in Tajur, Diklat Puapala, I got a very great message that until now I still can't believe! I passed the Province Economy Olympiade! From my school, only 2 of us passed to National Olympiad, Chaerunissa and I. Unbelievable, isn't it? Big thanks to those who had congratulated me. Well, wish us luck, friends..
Yesterday I got a letter of invitation from 'Departemen Pendidikan Nasional', the letter says that I will be staying in Kaesar Hotel in Duren Tiga on August 3rd - August 9th (which means I have to ignore my 1st Anniversary with Avian on August 8th.......) to have my National Olympiad. Until at the moment, I'm still not confident, I'm very afraid and a little bit scared. And I'm very disappointed with my school. All Olympiade subjects club is trained by a proper teacher except Economy and Kebumian (sorry can't find the right word to replace this hhehe). It's very disappointing! Icha and I have to study all by ourselves? Don't expect too much then.

SCHOOLYMPIC CARNIVAL 2009! Come and join us in this big event held by SMA Negeri 8 Jakarta. Let's carnivalize the youth in you! I really hope I can come and contribute myself in this great event but at that very moment, I would probably be somewhere else, study Economy to prepare for my National Olympiad -_- I really want to go to Schoolympic!!!!! But what can I do? Let's see whether I can come or not.................

Those are things I should have written days ago, but as usual, I had problem with my internet connection. Thanks a lot folks, and pleaseeeeeeeee wish me luck ;) !

Today and Tomorrow

I don't know what to post, I am not in a good mood actually.

1. Bad hair day
2. Going to school to get nothing (Puapala promised to have an important meeting, but yea 2hours after the due time, the meeting hadn't even started, and my father picked me up)
3. Coincidentally meet my friends without knowing what they were going to do (maybe hanging out?)
4. Almost all friends who met me this morning told me that I was getting really fatter
5. Having had to meet my boyf for less than 1hour only
6. Going to Monas with my little cousin from Solo and grandma which was very tiring and Oh My God it was really hot out there
7. Having lunch tooo much (okay I was making myself fatter)
8. Having a very bad stomacache because of you-know, woman's cycle
9. And right now, I am alone at Rakha's room, having insufficient credit to send messages or make a call.

Tomorrow, well going to airport to say goodbye to Kak Titis. That's my exact plan (cannot be changed or replaced) for tomorrow. I don't know what to do with the rest of my time. The other plan is just still not clear. Wish you have a good day tomorrow, friends!

Report? Holiday?

I have received my report. I had never been that nervous just to receive my report. My dad knew that I was really nervous. If my report had been awful, my dad would have had to save more money for my way to university. Yea I expect a lot from my report. And another reason why I was that nervous is because I didn't do my Final Sumatif Exam completely! I just had 5 subjects done, and the others were allowed not to be done because of osn-thing. Well it was relieving knowing that I didn't have to do all subjects, but i also made me nervous because I didn't know whether I would really have good scores on them or not hmm hm..

So, report? Actually I don't know what to comment. I've got two 70s on my report. 79 on Bahasa and 76 on Sport. Yea but it still makes sense because I like neither hahaha. My mom told my dad and my brother that my scores were great (thanks!), but they didn't say it to me directly. Well actually my scores are fine, they're good. Except those two subjects on which I got 70s. But yes, they're not better than my 1st semester report, but it's still okay.

Holiday? Still busy but I'm sure it'll be great! I'll have my friend come from NY (Dhini), we'll hang out together with my other bestfriends and we'll go to Bandung (which will be my third time being there) and I'll have Diklat in Tajur with my Puapala family.

July 1st, my sister are going to participate in a mooting competition, yea international law student competition which will be held in Brisbane, and in the same day Dhini is coming to Jakarta, and maybe there's also someone I know is coming to Jakarta too hehe. Today is my sister's birthday, but we are not doing or buying anything for her because my mom will give her alot of money when she's leaving jakarta on Wednesday and that's the present she asked. Please folks, wish my sister luck! UI was the world champion last year (my sister was on the team too), so I hope they can still be the champion again. My sister told me that this year will be harder than last year and this year my sister is chosen to be main speaker in all competition. So please wish her luck and wish me luck tooo with my holiday and our big Puapala event: Diklat! I want this holiday to be fun!

Weird

I just got home yesterday after 3 days away from Arlin Indah O-15. DPA/TPA LKS went crazily tiring and fun but the juniors were just awfully disappointing. I won't tell the details about the event because it'll be a loooooong story.
So after I reached home, I slept and I woke in the middle of the night because my cellphone rang. "Who on earth is calling me at time like this? It's bedtime for God's sake!". But then I looked into my phone, felt surpised and wondered. It was a call from an old friend. I enjoyed our conversation, I really did. But I know it's just not right. I could hear that sometimes you said something you shouldn't have. But again, I knew what I was doing. So trust me, I was just trying not to be rude to anybody.

P.S : I miss my giraffe, I don't know whether you feel the same way too. But what the hell happen to our relationship? I'm angry, mad and sad everytime I looked into my phone and found nothing. Even sometimes when I send you messages you just reply it in a very annoying ways! That's why I decided not to reply it again, hoping that you'd understand what you did. I need nothing but your maturity, dear.. Can't you just keep me informed or make me comfortable?

Immaturity

Immaturity is the incapacity to use one's intelligence without the guidance of another.

Immanuel Kant

Inconsistencies in men are generally testimony to their immaturity.

Edwin Louis Cole

What is immaturity? It's the opposite of maturity. And this is the pshycological definition of maturity, which will help you understand what immaturity means.. : Maturity is a psychological term used to indicate that a person responds to the circumstances or environment in an appropriate manner. This response is generally learned rather than instinctual, and is not determined by one's age. Maturity also encompasses being aware of the correct time and place to behave and knowing when to act in serious or non-serious ways. Maturity is something of personal character, or how one acts in stressful or difficult situations, because then a person's true ability to react to a situation can be seen. Fake social interactions are often misjudged as many people rely on outward appearance to mask inner strengths/weaknesses so as to present a simpler version of oneself to the world

Immaturity is something that everyone has, even a mature human can have their own immaturity side. But the problem is, how if a person has big capacity of immaturity?

Memorable Events

Can't wait for the 'Pemantapan Akhir' LKS thing and Diklat Puapala! It must be tiring yet very cool! I already got those events like a year ago, and they will always be patched on my mind. Those activities helped me a lot on my 'character-building' thing. And I hope my juniors will feel the same way too. And hopefully those events will be memorable for them! Enjoy it, juniors ;) !

Yes it is...........

"Life Is Wonderful"

It takes a crane to build a crane

It takes two floors to make a story

It takes an egg to make a hen

It takes a hen to make an egg

There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word

And it takes some words to make an action

It takes some work to make it work

It takes some good to make it hurt

It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn

And it takes a day to make you yawn brother

And it takes some old to make you young

It takes some cold to know the sun

It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to know what love is

It takes some fears to make you trust

It takes those tears to make it rust

It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is so full of

Ah la la la la la la life is so rough

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is our love

Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound

It takes a loss before you found it

And it takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to make you care

It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ha la la la la la life is wonderful

Ha la la la la la life is meaningful

Ha la la la la la life is wonderful

Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful

It is so meaningful

It is so wonderful

It is meaningful

It is wonderful

It is meaningful

It goes full circle

Wonderful

Meaningful

Full circle

Wonderful

Yea the lyrics is just true! Life is wonderful because it goes full circle. And to feel the beauty of life you have to feel the badness of life first. You can look up at people who are above you to make you motivated to learn and struggle harder to have life like theirs. But don't forget to look at people whose life is harder to be grateful to The Almighty and feel how lucky you are. That's why life is wonderful....

My alarm rang

On June 6th 2009:
Happy Birthday to my dad! Wow cool, now you are half-a-century old, dear Dad!
I love you, and I know, So do your wife, and your other children.. This is my only wish for you : I wish you could be a vegetarian again who always eat only vegetables and tofu (hehehe) and stop eating meat. Come on, don't quit being a vegetarian, please just eat what you used to eat :)

On June 8th 2009:
Wow it's been 10 months since we talked on that street, laughing and being stared by other people who passed the street, and then I answered your weird but lovely question.. I love you Avian Andikaaaaa :)))))

La la la

Finally! I have nothing to do today.. No OSN, and my teacher told me (and the other OSN students) that we didn't have to go to school to do Sumatif test today. They'll arrange a special schedule when the OSN students and I can do our Sumatif. Well, it's good! considering that I haven't studied anything besides Economy and Accountancy, hehehe ;D

I'll be having three days off anything; Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Today I'm having nothing to do, but maybe I'm going to school at 3pm to meet my PO and Avian. Tomorrow and Wednesday I'm going to study Economy&Accountancy for OSN again with my friends. It can be at school, or at my teacher's house in Pasar Minggu. And if it is in Pasar Minggu, I may meet my Junior high friend; Kevin. Hahaha but I think it's better to study for OSN than to do my Sumatif when I'm not ready at all! Yea, wish me luck in anything folks!

Friendship

I deserve my enemies with no doubt, but I don't believe I deserve my best friends..

If someone asks me whether I have best friends or not, I will answer 'Yes, of course I do!'
But this is what I want you to know.......
Maybe I'm not the type of person who likes to have intense relationship between best friends like phoning you everyday, chatting with you everytime, or calling you straightly when I want to cry.
But, you know, I still think you're my best friends.. Maybe I don't tell you my story regularly, but I left a piece of my heart in you. Sometimes I feel like a stranger when we talk to each other, knowing how little I know about you guys, but then I realised that it's the consequence of being my type of person. Love you and miss you so much peopleee!

to: Nessa Dami Utha Distie Dhini Ava Anti Tika Dinda Olvy

I wish I hadn't needed to live this day

Today has been awful! I hate today and I think maybe it would have been better if i hadn't woken up at all this morning. Everything just went totally wrong! But again I succeeded managing myself from crying. Well, I'm not sad, I'm just mad at anything!

Please someone, cheer me up..... But don't ask me why I'm mad, because I won't tell you why..

May 28th 2009

Happy 17th Birthday Aviaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!
Well, no more to write, because I've already written it on those papers I gave you personally.
I love you :)

Overwhelmed

Yea that's what I'm feeling, overwhelmed.... My head has been full of unimportant things, which actually don't need to think about, but yes those things really disturb me.
Lately I just discovered how fake this world is. Not everything in this world are real and even I just found out that I am surrounded by lies and fakes. After being awfully sick for a week, I learnt a lot about life. It's not about my illness, but it's about the hurting realities which occured after my being sick. And yes, everything's just overwhelming..
I didn't cry, but my heart was always beating fast when I knew that I was facing that hurting realities. It happened not just once. Well, as time goes by, I'm getting stronger.
I figured out many lessons of life in my highschool moments and then I realised, "Yea, highschool life is just fake." You can't know which people are kind to you and which are not, because you don't know what they are talking behind your back. Even sometimes maybe you just don't realise (because there are people who are good at being fake) when something hurting occurs right under your nose.
Overwhelmed is just the perfect word to describe how I'm feeling. My head and my heart is just full and tired of working too hard. My head has been used to think and digest all words that I've heard. My heart has been used to feel how hurt and manage myself from streaming my tears..
Don't be fake, people. Don't smile if you don't want to. Don't pretend to be the kindest person on earth if you still do backstabbing. Don't pretend to be something that you are not. Because being fake is totally unacceptable...

Lucky? Not really this time

I am a very lucky person or maybe the luckiest! I passed my Economy Olympiad again. Double U-O-Double U : WOW! Thank goodness for this luck but this time I can't really focus on this thing and it's because of the Sumatif I-should-be-having thing. I worry about my scores, I worry about the Sumatif I'll-be-having-alone.
Mom said to me that I should have focused on this Olympiad, because I had already missed the class many times! And how awful it is if I can't keep up my work in this Economy things when I can't follow the lessons in school either. I will mess both of them up. And actually I don't feel like I'm gonna pass the Olympiade again because I know that the others are much better than I am. That's why I worry about all these things..........

Too tiring week?

Yeah maybe.. This week has been crazily tiring! Yeah, I got 3 days off from school because of the Final School Examination for the 12-graders. Well, I kinda forget how i spent those 3 days, but all I know is I had no time staying at home. I spent it easily by going anywhere (Well I just totally forget where I went, because you know, my memory is a short-term-memory).
But, I remember something............. Tuesday night, I was told that someone from school called my house, and said that I had to join OSN Study Club in SMA 48. Well that meant I didn't have to study at school on Thursday and Friday! Yeah, you would think it was fun, but not for me. Because I already knew that studying Economy all day is much more tiring that studying at school with many friends you already knew.
It's not that I am not proud of my achievement being in the fourth rank in South Jakarta for Economy OSN, but I have to admit that I don't like Economy that much. But I am very grateful of this achievement. Soooo day 1 and day 2 of that Study Club went tiring enough, and still I had to prepare for the 'Drama Musikal' XI IPS 2010.
Saturday, it was D-Day when I had to take the selection test. Well, there were 125 pupils from all around DKI Jakarta, and 25 of those 125 were about to be eliminated. The test was awfully difficult. So I don't hope much, I don't wish for the highest rank, I just wish there are 25 people who are dumber than me hehehehe :D After the test, my friends and I went straightly to school to do the Dramus which went spectacularly cool!
Sunday and today? I'm sick. My parents told me it's because I am hardly home, I went anywhere anytime. Yeah, maybe I'm just too tired. I'm not going school today, I've got terrible fever and cough since yesterday :( hhhhhhhhhhhh I hope I can get well soon!

No pressure?

Is it? You might say there's no pressure, but for me it's definitely so much pressure.....
I always say that this whole life, my whole life, everything I do in life is dedicated to you. It is glued in my mind that you're the ones to whom I dedicate my life. You are my highest priority. Making you smile, or just seeing you showing me your thumbs is something I would do anything for. They've proved their ability, their special ability. Trust me guys, I'm working on it.
And just so you know, I love you sooo much, more than I love anyone else even myself................

And the award for 'Miss Lebay' goes to......

Oh noooooooooo! Gue ngga lebay kooooook...... Semua berawal dari Puapala 35 yang menyematkan secara tak terlihat predikat 'Miss Lebay' itu ke gue. Gue ngga selebay yang kalian bayangkan ataupun yang mereka umbar2kan. Sueeeeeer deh. Dimana titik lebay nyaaaa? Gue hanya terlalu vokal dalam menyampaikan setiap pendapat gue yang akhirnya memunculkan kata-kata 'mau mati', 'parah', maupun 'sedunia'. Masa kalo gue lagi ngomong sampe orang2 bilang "Kalo Binar ngomong jangan terlalu percaya, dia kan 90% nya lebay." Heeeehhh enak sajaaaaaa!
Ayo teman-teman Puapala 35, jelaskanlah kepada orang2 awam di luar sana bahwa gue ngga selebay yang kalian umbar2kan hehehe iyaaaa kaaan? Hm tapi pun kalo pun emang iya, yaudah deh gapapa juga, gue jadi punya trademark deh (walaupun jelek) hahahaha

Pertentangan Masa Depan

Kayanya masa depan gue bener2 masih jadi pertentangan. Kenapa? Because I still insist on being a supermama diplomat. Emang sesusah itu kah yaaa? Bukan cuma itu, jangankan jadi seorang mama, bahkan banyak banget yang bilang gue bakal susah punya suami kalo gue tetep bersikeras pengen jadi diplomat. Wooooy hidup gue nih men! Emang ga bisa ya tetep kerja sebagai diplomat, tetep nikah, punya anak dan tetep deket sama anak2 nya? Waduuuuh jangan patahkan keinginan gue dong teman2, hahahaha pertentangan memang.

How I spent my holiday

Saturday : Latfis Puapala + LKS 2009 & having Iriph and Niken in my room
Sunday : E-Comp ALSA and following my sister ALL DAY!
Monday : Rapat Pentaru with my Super PO
Tuesday : Ice skating with Avian, Iriph, Edwin, Niken
Wednesday : (thank God) being home all day
Thursday : Eval Puapala & hanging out with caang, Iriph, Malik, Taufan
Friday : Rapat Akhir Pentaru
Saturday : the day of super-exhausting Pentaru!

Tomorrow............
(Maybe and also I hope) being home all day long, having a long sleep :)

Another lesson

It feels like it's been ages to me being not connected to the unreal internet world. Don't ask why, because I can assure you that there are soooooooooo many reasons why.
Well, I thought I could use this holiday to read over my books, but again it was just my wish. I still had a lot to do even in holiday! ckckck
Anyway, I learn a lot from this looooong holiday. The most important thing I've just learnt is If you want something, don't hope too much; because if you do, the possibility of not getting what you want is bigger. I have no theory about this, I just know it. If you want something, just do what you can do to get it, but just don't hope too much, pray to Allah. Allah knows what's best.

RAFTING!

Yesterday was a real fun! Rafting went very well. After all those effort, it's worth it. Check out our rafting photos on Facebook, friends! I'm sure you will like and want to try to do rafting too :) Thanks to all Puapala 35 for making this event such a great fun. And thanks to the caang(s) for joining the rafting :)

3 words

I love you...

Little summary of the days

Great days! This 3days have been crazily fun! Ian's birthday, my adventure with puapala and quality time with my family.
Tomorrow will be another fun, especially for the puapala family. Cicatih river, here we go!
xoxo

Is it true?

YES! I hope it's true. I expect a lot from that one. And I hope what I heard from my friend is true. Pray for me guys, wish me luck!

Confession?

This morning I cried, not because I was sad. I cried because I realized how lucky I am in this big big world. I thank Allah for keeping myself healthy, normal, as good as I can expect. I just realized what I had done in the past 3 years. I always forgot (or sometimes was lazy) to do my pray. How awful. I hope now I'll have no disturbance to do my pray. Because I know that it is my duty as a human being in this temporary world to have a great great great joy after life.....

No time to read

I have no time to read. Well, it's true! I bought several books on July 2008 but 'till now I haven't got the time or chance to read it. These are the books I'm willing to read (because you know, I spent much time thinking about what books to buy and of course I spent my money which actually I need to save if I really want to have a spectacular vacation in the end of the term) :

1. Sixty Lights; I'm sure I'll like this book. Because I'm interested by the language it's using. Its language is hard to understand and need some thinking. And also I picked this book because it's about a girl growing up in the Victorian world.


2. What I Loved; I think it's a serious but witty novel. Its language is also interesting. I'm sure it'll dazzle us by its touching story about love, loss and betrayal.
   


3. A Bus Could Run You Over; well actually I don't really like reading teenlit novel. But I thought it wasn't a really teenlit novel. I bought it to refresh my mind by its jokes.

And there's one book which is bought by my sister 2 or 3 years ago. Its title is 'The Courtesans Daughter'. I love this book because I learnt a lot from this book. The most interesting of this book is the culture, because its story is about the turbulent society of ancient Greece which I had never known before.

Cool books! I hope I can have time to read them over. Because actually I'm a reader. I finished reading Harry Potter 7 only in one day. I'm sure I'll like those books I bought. I just hardly have much time to spend on it.

Argumentative Text

hey, I remembered that some time ago I wrote an argumentative text that should have been collected to Miss Desi. But I think she forgot that she had asked us to do that. So instead of letting it be unread, publishing it on this blog would be better. Please have a look..

The Press Should Decline to Report on Private Lives of Politicians

Initially, one of the reasons why I chose this topic is because I realize that there is something related between media or press and the private lives of politicians. Politics can be an instrument of change or force of good, but I’m sure we all know that it is the press that exposed corruption and other negative things and behavior of politicians. The relation between these two things is very interesting to be talked about. And of course people will have many different arguments and we all will have hard times to decide what is best; Forbid the press to make report of private lives of the political figures because private lives is privacy or allow them to make report of it because you want to know how they live their life and you are curious if they do something bad.

As a citizen, I would rather choose the second one. I want to know what they do in their life and honestly I am very curious about corruption, collusion, or even nepotism they might do. In the last two years many crimes which were done by the political figures are revealed. I have to admit that the press does their job very well. And of course I really support the media that can reveal more ‘weird’ behavior of our politicians. Just like a few months ago. Well, we all know that a few months ago a porn video of one of our representatives in DPR were exposed by the press. How embarrassing! And as citizens, we all need transparency from the government. We want to know what they are doing in their life as the citizens’ representatives and what they are doing with the people’s money. And I think it is very cruel and disgusting when the politicians, as our representatives in this country, use our money in a wrong way. It is in Indonesia! Can’t they see that people are still starving and suffering? Do they use their mind? Or do they still have hearts? Any politicians or any people who work for the government should realize that many people depend their life on them. We, as the people of this great country, trust them as our representatives. We lay our hopes of a better place to live, food to be eaten or even getting better education on their hands. And I am proud of our press which is brave to reveal these crimes. The press has been very helpful for the citizens to know which political figures are good and which are not.

According to all those reasons, I’m very sure to say that I don’t agree with this topic that stated ‘The press should decline to report on private lives of politicians’. It is important to us to know the truth of what those politicians and other public figures do. For the politicians, be careful with everything you do because you should realize that as public figures you can be exposed by the press in any time, and think about your people and remember how they depend their life on you. And for the press, keep working hard to reveal more crimes and I am sure that many of the people of Indonesia agree with me and we are pleased to support you.

Written by Binar Sari Suryandari

XI IPS

Thank you so much for reading!

Again

Now I'm wondering. I just don't get what is the point of talking heart to heart that we did yesterday if nothing changes? I thought it would work just like what we both wanted. You know what I'm thinking? We are just doing the very same drama over and over again!

5 Days

Friday Saturday Sunday Monday Tuesday

Jumat:
Jadi gue merasa melakukan kesalahan dari awal. Dari bangun tidur kesiangan sampe semua kesalahan di sekolah.... Hm jadi pada hari jumat pagi itu gue berasa males banget buat bangun dari pulau kapuk gue. Sampe akhirnya si Mama dateng ke kamar untuk yang ke sekian kalinya. Akhirnya gue memaksakan untuk membuka mata gue dan langsung mengambil handuk dan mandi. Eeeeh, ternyata hal yang sama pun dirasakan juga oleh si Rakha adek gue yang telah beranjak dewasa. Dia kesiangan juga. Eh yaampun, ternyataaaaaa hari jumat itu gue ga dianter sama nyokap, melainkan sama bokap gue yang akan mengantar gue, Rakha dan si mama. Si mama ga mau bawa mobil ke kanor karena mereka udah ada perundingan gitu deh, gue juga gatau. Kayanya sih biar nanti nyokap gue langsung nyusul adek gue latian karate aja naek taxi gitu. Nah gue udah berasa banget nih bakal telat. Bayangan gue akan dijemur datang menghampiri, walopun gue tau sekarang tidak ada jemur-menjemur. Naaaaah pas udah nyampe ujung tongtek yang macet parah, nyokap gue yang kayanya juga lagi buru2 tiba2 bilang "Wis, aku tak naek taxi wae." Lah bingung lah gue. Gue juga pengen turun rasanya dan pengen naek ojek ajaaaaa. Yaudahlah, turunlah nyokap gue dan tiba2 bokap gue bilang "Wah ini sih pasti kalian telat. Naek ojek aja ya? Bapak tak balik aja ke rumah." Yaudah gue sama si Rakha turun deh tuh.
Wah gue sangaaaat heran dan kesal karena menemukan ojek disitu habis terpakai. Ckckckck gue sama rakha udah kaya liat2an gitu dan akhirnya memutuskan untuk jalan kaki setengah lari. Si Rakha ini sekolah di 115, jadi agak capek juga sebenernya kalo jalan sampe 115, jadi gue membujuk dia untuk tetap berjalan sama gue dan baru naek ojek dari 8.
Eh tiba2 ada ot=rang manggil, "Neng ojek neng." Spontan gue jawab "Iya bang iya." Rakha memandang gue dengan pandangan aneh, seolah berkata "Hah?! Lo mau ninggalin gue naek ojek? Itu kan ojeknya cuma 1, terus gue jalan sampe smabel gitu?!" Gue langsung ngerasa gaenak. Tapi ga mungkin juga gue batalin tu ojek, capek men gue. Akhirnya gue tanya ke abangnya, "Bang mau berdua sama adek saya ngga? Ke 115, tapi turunin saya dulu di 8. Mau ya bang?" Akhirnya si abang menyetujui. Gilaaaaaaa gue naek motor bertiga men. Gue pake rok sekolah putih model A-line yang ngga sempit sih, tapi ngga rempel juga kan, jadi ga lebar2 amat. Posisi gue di tengah. Saat gue lagi membetulkan posisi sebelum berangkat, gue inget banget gue denger panggilan dari Syiki, "Binaaaaaar." sambil membuka jendela mobilnya. Malu bukan kepalang. Gue gatau deh itu rame banget dan gue dengan maksanya naek ojek bertiga sampe adek gue kaya mau jatoh gitu duduknya. Yey, akhirnya gue turun dan Alhamdulillah gue belom telat meeeen!
Nah udah nih kayanya sih hidup gue berjalan tidak normal, yaaa tapi setidaknya setidaknormal seperti biasanya. Yah kaya yang gue ceritain di post sebelumnya laah.

Sabtu:
Hari luntang lantung. Jadi sebenernya anak2 Pua itu pada ke Kapa UI buat latihan wall. Gue kaya udah pengen banget ikut men, tapi ternyata gue ga bisa karena ada pelatihan ekonomi gitu. Hidup gue kaya hilang seketika gitu. Setelah pelatihan itu gue ga tau mau kemana sampe akhirnya gue ke rumah Arty, mengungsi. Sebenernya gue nunggu Dami sama Dinda yang katanya mau jalan sama Olvy juga. Tapi karena kemaleman gue jadi gaikut deh. Nah kita kelaperan banget dan pengen banget makan sushi. Kita ke sushi-ya, makin luntang lantung lagi karena gue adalah harus menunggu karena rameeee banget men. Gue lupa mesen apa, yang jelas gue kaya orang kelaperan ga pernah makan sushi deh. Setelah itu gue pulang dan kembali ke kehidupan gue bersama keluarga gue yang abnormal dan seru sambil menjalankan program earth hour yang menyenangkan.

Minggu:
Blaaaah, tadinya mau funbike, tapi apa jadinya? Tak jadi. Dan ini adalah karena si Nessa, teman yang akan berbagi satu sepeda berdua (kaya funbike sama anak PO dulu) pas gue telpon jam stengah 5 bilang ga bisa. Tapi gapapa lah, toh gue juga masih ngantuk. Pagi2nya seperti biasa, sarapan, nonton tv sampe bosen dan mandi karena disuruh. Tapi gue udah niat banget buat ngecilin Jas OSIS gue yang membuat gue terlihat seperti kemakan baju saking gedenya.
Yaaa ternyata ada si mama mau belanja dulu di Carrefour Buaran Plaza (hehehehe buaran ada plazanya loh men). Yaaa ikut lah gue, gue juga mau potong rambut, hmmm merapikan cabang2 nya sih sebenernya. Eh gue potong kan di Johnny Andrean sambil nunggu bokap nyokap gue berduaan ngopi di Jco. Eh yaampun, gue saking asiknya baca majalah sampe gue baru sadar kalo rambut gue blownya adalah dicatok. Sumpah, gue benci banget sama yang namanya dicatok. Yaaa karena gue ga suka kalo rambut gue jadinya lurus. Tapi apa boleh buat..............
Yaudah deh gue belanja di carrefour, terus ngecilin jas gue. Pas sampe rumah, Rakha yang ga bisa kemana2 karena kakinya cidera gara2 karate dan ga bisa jalan itu mentertawai gue dan bilang, "Kak Binar kaya trio macan ih." Wah sialaaaaan banget deh. Tapi gue bersabar saja, karena gue tau dia akan terus memperolok gue sampe dia cape dan tertidur.

Senin:
Wow gue agak seneng sih, soalnya ternyata rambut trio macan gue yang kemarennya itu jadi bagus pas kebawa tidur. Lurus, tapi ngga lebay lurusnya. Yah jadi terlihat kempes dan agak rapi lah. Hari senen itu mungkin adalah rekor gue paling banyak menyisir, karena gue memang jarang dan males banget nyisir, kecuali kalo disisirin. Terus di hari senen ini lah gue muter ke kelas2 minta sumbangan buat yang korban situ gintung. Jangan lupa nyumbang yaaa! Hmm oiya, sebenernya hari senin ini juga mestinya gue berbicara lagi dengan Avian. Tapi sayang gue ga bisa. Ada forum 1 LKS. Gue excited banget sih kalo soal ini hehe walaupun ternyata agak sedikit kecewa karena masih ada yang bercanda2 pas forum. Yak terus gue pulang, dan hidup gue kembali mengesankan. Entah mengapa gue rukun banget sama Rakha dan Kak Titis hari itu. Kita kaya melakukan hal2 gila yang aneh dan freak bersama dan bodohnya kok gue mau aja ngikutin mereka sampai akhirnya gue tertidur lelap di pulau kapuk bersama si penguin.

Selasa:
Hari ini ngga ada yang aneh sih, kecuali fakta bahwa kita sekelas sibuk bikin TTS agama yang membuat mata gue hampir jereng. Dan hari ini juga ternyata remed Agama hehe insyaAllah berhasil deh. Dan setelah itu kepala gue mumet karena gue baru sadar betapa abnyaknya ahl yang harus gue lakukan dan pikirkan. Hari ini gue harus ngomong sama Avian, seperti kaya apa yang udah kita rundingin sebelumnya. Tapi gue gatau mau ngomong apa. dan gue harus mikirin rafting yang ternyata perorangnya 400ribu. Anjrit, itu sih ketua nya aja ga mau ikut deh kalo 400ribu hehehe. Yah akhirnya gue ngomong sama Avian dulu. Gue mengikiuti jalannya arus serta instinc gue sendiri. Yah, semoga apa yang kita putuskan hari ini, tadi secara baik2 itu emang yang paling baik. Kita sama2 berusaha ngejalaninnya sebaik mungkin karena yaa kita memutuskan bahwa apapun alesannya, itu ngga cukup kuat buat bilang kalo kita ini ga cocok. Walaupun mungkin kita juga sempat sedikit berpikir seperti itu. Yah sudahlah, I love him all the way. Dan gue percaya kok sama apa yang udah kita omongin tadi. Kita ngomongin itu secara baik2 banget dan kita seneng banget karena akhirnya bisa seperti ini........

Hm udah ah, gue udah agak ngantuk. Besok bangun pagi lagi dan gue gamau naek ojek bertiga lagi cuma gara2 kesiangan hehehe. Byeeeeee

Rough Days

Yeah these days have been quite rough to me. Problems came to me just like the rain, unpredictable and unbelievably heavy......
Yesterday I didn't get a chance to publish a post. So I'll tell you what I was going to tell you yesterday in this post. I could feel the emptiness yesterday. I felt like having no energy. But I thank God that my friends noticed what had happened to me. They succeeded cheering me up. Thank you my dear friends ;)

On Thursday :
I went to Senayan to do my duty as a senior. The physical exercise was very boring and then it became very disappointing. I was disappointed because of my junior's behavior. Ckckckckck Then I went to Avian's house with Syiki by taxi. We didn't know how to get to Avian's house we almost got lost but thank God, we didn't. And Syiki, Andi, Brian, Avian and I were swimming there. We played coin-finding game. And then I went home and I never felt more alone........

On Friday :
I was very nervous in the morning because I was going to have English exam. The exam was about Gerund and Infinitive. Many friends had told me that the test had been difficult. And only some of the students passed the test. Well actually I didn't really study. I slept early at the night before. My hand went cold and I was sweating during the test. But thank God I passed! I got 93! And yesterday I was also very surprised because I am accepted in Economy OSN! Yeaaaay! And after school, I had Puapala meeting with the juniors. The meeting was called 'Sharing Frontal'. And I went home and felt alone again until my phone rang.

Today? I'll tell you later about my day today. Now I'm at Arty's house, borrowing her computer to write this post hehehehe (thanks arty). Thanks people for visiting and reading this blog! Wish me all the best dooooong yaa? Help me through my problems..........

We've talked about this

"Well, don't laugh too much in the morning if you don't want to cry in the night." (yeahs, it's true)

Just think about it carefully and don't hurry. I'm sure you know what to do. I know Allah will give us the best way for both of us. Keep it as a secret, just like how I always keep you in my mind and heart. Don't let anyone make comment about it, because they don't know what exactly happen and it's only between you and me. I'm sure you know how I feel, so I don't need to type it here.

Again; just think about it and don't rush, we'll figure it out............

Scores, Awareness, Pak Fuguuuuuuu

Akhirnya gue menyentuh laptop gue juga. Post yang kemaren itu juga gue publish lewat hape, bukan laptop. Akhirnyaaaa! Hm my other scores? As I predicted, they made me disappointed. Even my english score! :'( But it's okay, because the test was full of text and paragraphs, and I always hate reading test. Deutsch : 88, Economy : 92, Sociology : 66, English : 76 (reading); 100 (listening), Religion : 56, History : 94.

My last post; it was my way to show my anger. I was really angry and it had something to do with 'Awareness'. I've been aware that awareness is very needed to built a relationship with someone. I mean not only boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, but also relationship with friends, family or any other people. And I perfectly realized that :
awareness -> tolerance -> kindness -> care -> love -> happiness.

And now about my day today!
hahahaha my day has been fun! Kayanya bakal lebih seru kalo diceritain kalo pake bahasa sehari-hari aja deh hehehe biar agak bisa aneh2. Jadi...... hari ini itu seperti biasa gue dateng pagi, belajar, gosip, maen kartu, sampe istirahat pertama. Nah dari kemaren tuh emang udah ada rencana gitu mau cabut ke BNI buat nembusin proposal Wall-Re (Wall Reconstruction). Tapi emang agak gila sih, soalnya siapa aja yang mau pergi belom ditentuin. Naaah, gue dengan spontan bilang "Woy gue aja deh ikutan yaaa? Gue BTA semua nih." Jadilah gue ikut ke BNI bareng Akbar, Idham, Mirhady, Astra naek mobilnya si kribo (akbar).



Pertamanya kita ngambil proposal dulu di percetakan. Yaudah deh abis ngambil kita bingung mau kemana soalnya si CP BNI nya yang namanya pak Fugu was unreachable gitu ga bisa ditelponin. Terus kita ke rumah kak Ilham ngaso sambil asik maen capsa. Seru deh (kayanya gue udah bener2 ketagihan maen deh). Terus kita cabut, tapi kelaperan. Alhasil kita mampir ke wafa, makan dulu sambil ngobrol2. Nah abis itu kita udah bener2 commit deh kalo sekarang harus ke BNI nya. Sayang sekali jalanan macet berat, jadi kita cari jalan muter2 deh entah lewat mana karena gue emang buruk dalam kenavigasian hehehe. Alhamdulillah kita sampe juga. Pusiiiiiiiiing, rame banget bo ternyata dan yah maaf yah berhubung gue punya penyakit kampung jadi pusing deh gue. Gue phobia keramaian zzz terus kita dioper2 gitu deh kaya lagi ada ditermehek2. setiap ditanyain mau ketemu siapa kita bilang "Mau ketemu pak Fugu, pak." Dan mereka selalu menjawab "Di divisi ini ga ada yang namanya Pak Fugu." Kita jadi bingung, 'Does he really exist in this BNI world?' Termehek-mehek banget deh pokoknya.

Bodohnya memang sangat keterlaluan, kita ngga nanya pak Fugu biskuit gembung itu divisi apaan. dan disitu kaya ada belasan divisi atau bahkan puluhan divisi yang terbagi dalam beberapa gedung. Kita aja sampe udah naek turun 3 gedung yang berbeda pake lift yang bikin pusing dan mual. Akhirnya kita dikasih tau buat nyoba ke Divisi Dana dan Jasa Konsumen di Lantai 40 di gedung yang paling jauh. Okay, kita jabanin dah. Ckckckck pas udah sampe sana, apa yang terjadi? PAK FUGU SI BISKUIT IKAN GEMBUNG ITU SEDANG RAPAT. Wah lelah juga ya. Tapi kita menitipkan proposal perpanjangan kontrak itu lah ke kaya semacam penjaga nya gitu dan udah janjian sama staf nya buat ketemu lagi pas hari jumat. Huff apa sih yang ngga buat Puapala? hehehehe ;) Yah pulang deh kita, ngantuk banget dan nanggung banget jamnya. Kita nyampe sekolah jam 3an gitu dan gue males banget balik ke kelas lagi. Nanggung banget oy. yaudah ngaso lah gue di mobil bang Akbar sama astra mirhady. Idham ke sawin, Akbar shalat. Pas bel kita turun, ngambil tas dan kumpul di KOSMIK (Kosan Malik). Gue gambar sebuah bohlam peyang buat iriph presentasi LIA. Hehehe sorry yak kagak simetris lampunya hhehe. Terus pulang deh.

Dan selesai petualangan gue hari ini karena gue mau merencanakan cara berangkat besok pagi ke latfis caang 36 yang dipegang sama 34. Waaaa can't wait deh. Gatau kenapa gue excited banget, pokoknya gue seneng aja gitu. Dan gue mohon para 35 sekalian untuk datang semuanya tepat jam 7 yaaaa di pintu 1!

Yeahs, that's all people! Hugs and Kisses :) -Binar-

I know you already knew

Awareness is always something I'd love you to have.......


I'm exploded by my own emotion that i've been keeping for a very long time. I change myself a lot to suit you, please will you do the same?

Parts of this week

PART I = MID TEST
Well as I told you before that I always had problem in updating my blog regularly. Yaaa jadi lah gue yang lupa meng-update blog gue ini hehehe. And my first story is about ....... MID TEST! zzz I'm not satisfied with my scores. Yaa dari 4 nilai yang udah gue ketahui, 2 diantaranya adalah remed hm....... I got 70.00 in Citizenship and 72.00 in Sport. Well what can I say? It's not very bad actually, because they are still above 70.00. But yea I still need to take the remedial test. Tapi yaaa Alhamdulillah juga deh gue ga remed TIK dan Matematik yang masing-masing dapet 92.00 dan 93.00 (even my math score is the best score in my class!). Yah walaupun nilai gue lagi turun2nya, gue seneng banget karena Avian nilainya bagus2 dan ngga ada yang remed loh hahaha hebat ya dia? hehehe Well enough talking about Mid Test. I'll tell you my scores in other subjects too as soon as possible.

Part II = OSN?
Hahaha ini mungkin bagian yang paling ga penting sepanjang masa ya. Tapi buat gue ini lucu banget deh hehehe. Jadi pada hari terakhir mid test, gue datang pagi seperti biasa dan bertemu Andika C.Z. (A) dan Pramudita H. A. (D) dan mulailah kita mengobrol....
B: Aduh sumpah deh gue ga belajar agama sama sekali
D: Ah boong, binar mah suka gitu bilangnya belajar tapi..
B: Yeh, beneran dit gue belom belajar apa2
A: Tapi belajar sejarah kan lo?
B: Yaa cuma baca2 soal ini doang gue, itu juga cuma baca, ga masuk ke otak hehehe
A: Lah jadi lo belajarnya apa? Belajar ekonomi kan lo?
B: Hah? Ekonomi? Orang hari ini Sejarah sama Agama gitu dik. Ngapain belajar Ekonomi?
A: Lah OSN nya Ekonomi kan lo? Kan hari ini..
B: Hah? Omaigat gue lupa abis parah, aduh gimana dong gue belom belajaaaaaar

........... dan pikiran gue kembali ke beberapa hari yang lalu saat gue dengan pede nya menuliskan nama gue di form OSN ekonomi dan kebumian (?). Jangan mikir macem2 ya, gue nulis nama gue di 2 subject itu bukan karena gue mau ngerjain dua2nya. Tapi karena gue bingung hehehe -,-'
Akhirnya pada akhir mid test, gue baru deh kelabakan mau baca2 buat test OSN. Gue mutusin buat ikut ekonomi aja, dan pas gue liat ruangan gue, tiba2 gue liat nama gue di ruangan KEBUMIAN! "Oh noooooooo! Gue gamau kebumian, gue mau ekonomi ajaaaa, help meee!" kata gue dalam hati. Akhirnya gue masa bodo dan gue masuk aja ke ruangan ekonomi. Pas dimulai, baru gue bilang, gue pindahan dari kebumian, dan Alhamdulilaaaaah Pak Acil yang baik hati memperbolehkan gue buat pindah....... Tapi belom selesai sampe disitu. Mulailah soal dibagikan. Awalnya gue ngeliat dari jauh dan bergumam "Kok banyak ya?" dan ternyata pas soal jatuh ke tangan gue, gue ngerasa soalnya agak berat dan pas gue liat.........."Oh noo, it consists of SIXTEEN PAGES!" -,-' Gue kaget banget parah, 16 halaman, 70 soal, 90 menit. And there was 3Parts; There were 30 questions in Economy part, 20 questions in Accountancy part and 20 questions in English part. And beside the english part, there were also several economy and accountancy questions in English and also several question consisted of numbers and function which needed to be counted zzzz

PART III = Latfis peresmian Bacaang
Yeeeee, ini ttg PUAPALA. Jadi ada beberapa angkatan bawah gue yang masih jadi bacaang (kalo ngga salah sih ada 3) dan mereka harus jadi caang dong supaya bisa disamakan dengan teman2 lainnya. Yaaah buat kronologis latfisnya gausah diceritain lah, yang jelas gue kecewa banget karena bacaang yang mau diresmiin pada akhirnya cuma 1orang. Pokoknya semua berjalan dengan lancar lah sampai pada akhir latfis (pas semua caang lagi mau shalat) datanglah orang dari Polsek. Gila, jujur deh ya gue awalnya kaget banget dan agak panik, makanya gue diem aja. Mereka nanya2 gitu ttg latian hari ini. Temen2 gue yang laen jawab dan gue dengan sangat MT nya duduk ngeliat dari jauh, thinking about how could they come there and interrogate us. Tapi gue juga bingung karena temen2 gue yang laen kok tenang2 aja yaa. Gue juga mestinya tenang sih, kan kita ga salah, tapi yaaa takut juga lah gue rasanya.

Akhirnya setelah selesai, gue baru tau ternyata pas tadi gue sempet misah dari yang laen, ada ibu2 yang lagi jogging berhenti dan ngefoto2in latfis kita dan nanya2. Dan tenyata ibu2 itu nelfon polisi, dikira kita mau bunuh anak orang kali. Sumpah deh gue bete banget. Nih ibu kok lebay banget sih, orang juga pecinta alam masa mau bunuh orang? Lagian kemaren itu itungannya bukan latfis, cuma peresmian doang. Paraaaah gue langsung bete deh -,-'

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Yah begitulah cerita penting gue seminggu ini. Yah cerita gue yang laen adalah pertama kalinya gue liat 1temen gue nangis2 kaya orang gila karena pacarnya. Akhir minggu ini gue mengurusi permasalahan cinta salah seorang teman gue yang cukup kompleks. Hm yang jelas gue belajar banyak dari masalah mereka. Pokoknya gue berdoa dan mengusahakan yang terbaik lah ya buat lo berduaa ;) ehehehe
I guess that's all, byeeeeeeeeeee!